Thank you both for the replies. I definitely will never be doing this again; it was by far one of the worst experiences of my life! I know I should talk to my T about it but I am just so ashamed. I also keep thinking " well if I am never going to do it again what's the harm in pretending it never happened?". I think the sick feeling is mostly from anxiety because it is now the next day and I still don't feel like myself. I am also a bit of a hypochondriac so I think I have done a pretty good job at freaking myself out!