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Originally Posted by stratocaster
I am starting to feel what everyone around here is talking about. I don't want to come to PC, but I have to, because it helps.
I'm getting wrapped up in social things that I don't want to be part of (too much fear of perceived rejection, adequacy issues, wanting to be part of but feeling apart from) but I want to have friends too...I feel like the only people who understand and 'get me' are others with BPD, but I don't fit in (I'm perceiving that I dont?)
I should follow my own advice ^ I luckily have a few new things in my life that can distract me, but I feel drawn ...back. I want a support group, but I want friends too, maybe I can't have both (or shouldnt?). I know that no amount of approval from others will help me, but I am a social person too...How to have my social needs met without my BPD traits coming up and flooding my brain?
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You DO fit in....that's why you're starting to feel this way. Sigh... I wonder how much of this is being caused by us taking on each other's traits? Because of our own self-identity issues? Are we just, completely unintentionally, damning each other?