carie ann i've read several posts where you say you drank again.
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it's AA nite on monday but i wonder if i'm just wasting their time. like i won't open up to anyone to even say how much i drink, why i drink etc. so is there any point?
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here's what i do know about not opening up at meetings about the above quote. it doesn't work at all unless you are prepared to get honest with yourself and others in recovery or who are struggling like you. it's a "we" program. we cannot get sober alone, imho. it is no sin to admit you have a problem staying sober. afterall that's one of the reasons AA got started in the first place.
and yes there is a point. but we need to be willing to go to any length to stay away from a drink. perhaps you're not ready to stop drinking? it takes what it takes. consider how low you have to go or how wonderful life is drinking. for me it was not pretty. i beat myself up over and over drinking again. it's all about the choice we make. i've been sober for a long time now and cannot see how i let it go on for so long. many of us die before we get sober...friends of mine who died of this disease to name a few...my fgf mary jane age 45, sean age 30, p.j.age 19, gail age 30, billy age 36, etc.
and based on another of your posts i think your throwing up is because you drank. i used to do that when i'd either be detoxing or when i got up in the morning until i got a few drinks in me.
hope you'll give my post some thought. we're here to support your efforts in staying sober. you are worth it.