I am so confused right now. So much has happened in my life and I just don't know what to do. My husband and I have been together for 7 years but just got married 6 months ago. We have been through a lot, starting with him being married and me cheating on him. I have had a lot of issues with self esteem, confidence and relationships. Prior to my husband I had only been in one other somewhat serious relationship. My husband and I come from two completely different backgrounds and we are both from different cultures/races. I am not a good communicator. When my husband found out I cheated we separated for a year then decided to get back together and get married. Since then we spent the first month of being married arguing and disagreeing. He trusted me with the finances and I made a complete mess of things to the point where I used his credit card and used all of our savings. Now he can't trust me and we've been sleeping in separate rooms. I am so lost and confused because he tells me how disappointed he is and how much I have hurt him. I am trying to get better at communicating but I seem to make things worse. He has been leaving at odd hours and comes home late now. Something he never did before. I don't know how to deal with that. I'm not sure if I should be worried or if I just need to let him be. I feel very lonely, sad and confused. I just don't know what to do.