I understand how you feel Molly2012. I suffered from child abuse too. I was also bullied in school on tmr of that. It is especially depressing when you find out that you are autistic. I too have recently discovered that i have Autism too. It is a good thing you are already 23, an adult and able to make your own decisions, unlike me, I can't get out of my situation as i am still a kid. Try to look at the positive sides of having aspergers. Maybe it will be helpful for you to go for therapy with people experienced with Autism. Wish you the best of luck.