Well there are a lot of relationship issues but I will start with one topic my mom. I have two parents who I love so vary much but one thing that hurts is my mother and I do not have a relationship. I have tried to be close to her but I honestly don't feel she cares. My mom has always told me how my thoughts and feelings don't matter. I was always a burden to her, as long as I was no where near her and basically out of her hair she loved me just fine. Growing up I thought mom's actually liked it when their children talked about going to college, moving out you know all that good stuff but my mom always told me that it was too stressful to talk about and always found away to discourage me. When I was sad she got mad because she had her own problems. I have been molested one time, attempted rape once, and raped once. When I was alittle girl maybe just entered kindergarten, my cousin touch me and talked dirty so I knew it was wrong, I told my mom she didn't believe me and told me he was just playing around, he was 16 I think and I was maybe 5. In high school a boy on the bus touched me between the legs and when I asked him to stop he got mad, and he was always weird with me, so I reported him to the cops because no matter what I told my mom she never believed me, when the cop called her she said it was probably my fault I was 14 he was 20 and not even suppose to be on the bus. My cousin tried to rape me when I was 14 or 15, he was twice my age, I chose to just keep that too myself. In 2010 I was raped by someone I thought was my friend. I decided to keep that too myself. I never had a great experience going to school growing up because I never had friends and always was being teased or harassed, my mom always told me I was just feeling sorry for myself so I started to actually believe I wasn't worth much. Too this day my mom and I can not talk about anything serious. I have a lot of family issues and lately have been thinking about just leaving everyone behind and moving on, I can call or visit them every once in a while. Right now I only go to my parents home maybe once or twice a week and limit my time to a hour or two depending on how everyone is doing. I want them to know I love them so I do at least make an appearance. I think my mom views me as a mistake and the reason why she is miserable. Everyone says she loves me but honestly I do not feel her love and only feel like she gave birth too me raised me but never cared about me like a mother should. I forgive her but it hurts and has really affected me a long time and there is no one to talk too about it.
Last edited by FooZe; Oct 29, 2012 at 01:12 AM.
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