I know that if I eat more on a certain day, especially at dinner, I feel really disgusting and I totally hate myself even more, because I feel like I have less self-control and I have given in or totally failed or something like that. It's weird and it doesn't make sense, even as I am typing it, but that's what happens to me, at least. I know when I was restricting a lot more than I am now, I would feel physically ill if I ate more, and I would feel more powerful and almost a euphoria if I didn't eat.

Hope this helps?