I hate that voice. I hate the constant battle between the healthy voice "you deserve to eat like every other human being" and the relentless self-critical ED voice. I always get triggered by the most innocent or complimentary comments. There really is no winning- someone can tell me I look great and I think "if they knew how much work it took to look this way...obviously I can't eat normally because then my weight would explode...." My husband often will toss out a "you look good" after I have been through a heavy purge cycle ( he doesn't know this, but I do ).

I'm sorry you are struggling. You are a human and you do deserve to eat and be healthy. We all do.