You sound so much like me. I took forever to figure out what I wanted to do, and I finally got my BS at 25. I still felt like I could've done more too. I went for my graduate degree, and that was a disaster. I sleep a long time too. At least 14+ hours on the weekend when I'm not at work. My aunt, who I live with, isn't great to talk to either. I've tried, and she tells me to buck up and get over it. Which makes me want to slap her. I've gone through periods of withdrawal from friends as well. I tried to talk to at least one good friend, namely my best friend, when I was feeling bad, even when she was more successful than I was at the time. I didn't want to hear how successful my other friends were either. Or my cousin. I was constantly having that rubbed in my face. Oh look, Kelly has her Master's Degree now. When are you going to get yours? You know what, f**k you, I'll get it when I'm ready. I got so gddmned tired of hearing that over and over again. Even after I got my degree, it took me awhile to find work in my field. Don't feel alone. I felt the same way, looking for work, feeling like a total loser when I couldn't find any. I felt humiliated when I'd go into places and ask if they were hiring. I had to settle for menial jobs before I found something in science. I worked in fast food and retail until I finally got a job in my field. You should talk to someone, it would help. I started therapy when I was really bad 13 years ago. I was suicidal, and it did help me. I have low self esteem too, and that's another reason to talk to someone. I always think to myself, who would want someone like me? But someone did, and they hired me and gave me a chance. As far as my love life goes though, I have none. I love someone I can't have. Don't feel like you're alone.