Hi Power ,
I know exactly how you feel I too have been thought all the skills and even help a few people but never myself ,like you said did we do something cruel in a previous life ? I often ask that question :-(
I feel like I am drowning all the time too many emotions all at once and times I accept them and try deal with them only to be back to where I was .
I really wish there was a magic pill to take to get rid of this torture and I know people say" there are worse off out there " but when your living with this pain that doesnt help I find life throws 1 bad situation at us when we are just getting over the previous but I need to be ok for my kids ,there my only reason for carrying on and thats even an effort .
I hope you I and everybody else get some break soon and not just for a day but for life ,I keep telling myself I cant feel any worse but I do every time (((((hugs))))))