I always feel guilty about that that I do for myself that gives me pleasure... even going to the movies! I don't really know where the guilt stems from, it's not like we did anything to deserve what happened. Maybe you feel guilty for having a good sex drive because you think you shouldn't have one, that you don't deserve to have one. This is also a form of self punishment, not leaving physical scars but emotional ones. Do what you enjoy and remember that the guilt you feel is only in your head, you are not bad, not even for acting out. I think we all tried to cope with it in some extreme manner and feel bad about it, but don't punish yourself for too long. Make a fresh start, get up tomorrow and look at yourself in the mirror. Say to yourself that this is the new you... no more guilt. What's done is done and you can't change it, but you can change yourself. When you go out of the house, smile to the people you walk past, don't just keep your head down, and give someone you don't know a compliment. You can start a fresh leaf everyday...

Tanya