It's okay, Trippin. We all have bad days and having bipolar only adds to that. So, don't beat yourself up about your choice.
Remember your inner cave woman is a tribal creature so sometimes she is going to panic about not having a tribe. But you do have a tribe. It's Jordan and your brother at least, and that's good.

And I think even if you don't go the man rout, you can find friends. And I can be part of your tribe. I'll be the distance weirdo that lives across the ocean.