It might be worst than I thought..

Before and because of the issues of cheating my boyfriend and I share passwords. Well I get his to monitor him, I give him mine because I forget all the time...

He went out to dinner with his family because it was his parents anniversary, but when I asked him about it he was giving me replies and questions not related to what I asked.

Every time I'd feel something is wrong I get tummy aches and if something is really really wrong I become nauseated and even have diarrhea. Sorry.. I did have the latter.. So my next instinct or impulse was to go to his FB account.

And there I found that he was searching for this FB account that is for perverts and for people who engaged in casual sex.

I am absolutely horrified and disgusted!

But I want to save my relationship. Other than the cheating, lying and this he is a good man. No other person has been accepting, supportive and understanding of all the things I went through. This is a man I intend to marry. We are engaged. I want things to work. Frankly at the moment he's all I really have.

I really can't think straight right now. I don't know what to do..

All I know is I love him and I want to make things work. I want to help him if this is a problem. I'm his partner and I'm not going to give up.

Please help me.. Please suggest what I can do to save our relationship..

Thanks!