Most of the time, yes, Sannah. I will do something, feel ashamed/stupid/embarrassed, and get really upset with myself. Then I can't get it out of my head how terrible of a human being I am and will spend a long time thinking about hurting myself. I keep trying to distract myself, but I definitely need to find new ways that actually take my mind off it AND new ways to build my self-esteem. I keep shoving myself into a deep pit, getting frustrated, and getting angry.

I feel like an awful human being who can't handle many things right. Ugh, I felt a little better last night, but finally txt my therapist today because I was too depressed and in pain to leave the house. I don't want to go anywhere or do anything, and a couple months ago, I was fine, stable, and in a good place. What the heck??? It's like all my DBT skills washed away.