Oh no. I am so sorry, love.

How are your emotions today? I remember you mentioned that you couldn't see your counselor for awhile (I think that's what I remember). Have you considered getting a different counselor who you can see more frequently? I think you really need someone to process things with.
I know you are an awesome listener but if you need someone to listen, I am here for you. Love you dear.
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Never forget how loved and beautiful you are!!!