I'm not really in control over my moods. Some days are better than others. I try to enjoy it as much as I can. I think what helps me is that I am not around many people who know my illnesses so no one is really judging me. The only person significant in my life who knows is my boyfriend, and I'm sure he enjoys it when I have a good day. However, my T told me one day, that since I couldn't think of anything to talk about, that it was a good thing that nothing bad was going on to talk about. I did not like her saying that, because there are obviously a lot of things wrong, I just did not know what of it to talk about. I didn't feel like I needed to bring up anything specific at the time. Just because I do not talk about bad things does not mean they do not exist! Don't get me wrong, I would love it if nothing were seriously wrong. Actually I see my T tomorrow afternoon, and actually do have something to bring up with her, even though lately I haven't really known what to talk to her about. I guess I am just rambling now.