Trippin, I can relate to the feelings of, "No one can deal with me" stuff. To have friends and much of my own family tell me to my face that essentially I'm a lot to deal with, well....that hurts like a mother****er.

However, my boyfriend has been with me through every possible freaking out/Bipolar/depressive/anxious scenario so far and isn't the least bit fazed. It never ceases to amaze me. I asked him about being a burden one day. He goes, "Everybody has something they have to deal with in themselves." He's acknowledged more than once he's not the easiest person to live with either (has a lot of OCD issues). Then he mentions a former gf that was a bible thumper and says, "I'd rather deal with this then be forced to go to church every week." Which made me laugh, partly because he was serious. He was a Psych major in college, and I think somehow he finds what I deal with very interesting......he isn't frightened of it, intimidated by it, nor does he ever seem to feel burdened (like so many others in my life). I don't know how. He is extremely generous, patient and kind. It surprises me sometimes that I came upon this amazing man (especially when my own father was a pretty pathetic example of a father figure/"man").

I guess what I'm saying is there is a guy/guys out there that can love you for who you are; "extras" and all. I don't know that I would still be around right now if I didn't have my bf; he has been most of the glue that's kept me going for the past several months.