I feel I only bring people down with my depressing crap so I would like to ease the load and delete my account. Thought maybe people here could get me but everyone here is so focused on recovery my view of not being able to recover seems almost taboo like I am doing something wrong by just wanting to live with the problems I have.

Its like I've already said too much only to be met with a brick wall that spits out the same over-used advice. 'It gets better." "You just need motivation", "Its not so bad."

well it doesn't get better, I have no motivation or anywhere to get any and it is so bad actually and its like no one gets it even on mental health sites. People say they get it and then go on about about all this recovery BS that does not work for everyone. Sorry not trying to be offensive, I am just frusterated and feel so alone even around friends and family so I wish I could find just one person who gets it and wont try to re-assure me with common quotes that don't always prove true.