You might be right. I am just drowning in anger and disgust with myself. I feel like I am always letting myself down. I just want to be proud of myself. I want to feel stable again, but every morning, I wake up upset at myself and wanting to cut so much. The only thing stopping me is my therapist's disappointment to be honest. I feel so awkward and... bad. Like I'm a bad person. Ugh.

I am going to talk to her today. It's become too much to handle on my own. Thank you for your love and listening. It means everything.