Rap, would you like a buddy while you work on this? I need to work on it too, I guess. I have a hard time seeing how I do what I'm told I do when it comes to describing situations in my life accurately, because they seem accurate to ME, as you said. But apparently this is a real sticking point for me, too. Maybe we can help each other work on it, and point out to each other when it might be happening?
I think you're great, BTW, and I would never call you a victim!
Love, Candy