Everyone makes mistakes. I for one have made many but you can't give up. I went to rehab six times. I stayed the thirty days and had the best intentions but still gave in an used. Finally on the seventh try it worked but I went for six months and that was almost seven years ago. You have to try and be strong and please don't be to critical of yourself. Ok you drank, you can't change that but you can acknowledge it and move forward. Just take it day by day otherwise it can get very overwhelming. All you can do is try and if you falter the key is to get back up and try again. Remember we are here for you. You can do it and have the wonderful life you deserve.