Hope court goes well, and agree that its perfectly understandable to feel how you do, concidering the massive plate full of faecal matter put infront of you. Please do take that hour to yourself, run a lovely bath, listen to some relaxing tunes, and just take a tiny timeout to be with youg and look after you. Hope this pain and suffering you've been experiencing fux off soon, and that your family can heal and be whole again thinking about you and the children