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Hi. I wasn't too sure which forum to post this in. So here I go. I am bipolar 2, borderline pd. I am on permanent disability for these things. My husband and I have been together for almost 15 years. We have a 4 year old son. My husband has always dreamed of going to law school and becoming a lawyer. Two semesters ago he began a simple 2 year program at our local junior college in order to get some type of regular income. Up to this point I have been moderately to severely sick. Only recently (within the last year) have I been properly medicated and functioning well. But within the passes 10+ years of him working retail jobs, while I was not medicated, he would end his employment due to my inability to be alone or my general level of mental health being so poor. Now having gotten into this program a little longer it is now a very real possibility that he will have the opportunity to go to law school within the next 3 years. I am petrified. I truly want him to be able to do this. He has always wanted it. But he is my sole support for mental health. He will be gone at school 5 days a week most of the day and then studying the rest of the days. It is intense. I've never been away from him so much. The thought of this along with him then following school working as a lawyert and keeping lawyer hours is bringing me to tears regularly.
Does anyone have any advice for me? I know it sounds selfish of me but I don't have anyone else and this scares me to death. I can't tell him please don't do what you've dreamt all your life to do so that I don't go crazy and have a break down. Worst part, depending on your view, is that he sees how its hurting me and is telling me he wont do it. I need help to figure this out.
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