Geodon is a great medication and I am sure that doubling the dose will help. Your degree and volume of suicidal ideation is abnormal. Especially given that you yourself keep saying that your life is great - kids, husband, clergy, everyone is great and you are thankful for them. Yet, the ideation. It is abnormal. Something is deeply wrong with your brain chemistry. People in your life situation are happy, and you are suicidal. It is clearly not situational - it is biological. Do you see my point?