God doesn't hate you but it's okay if you feel like God does.
Feelings are always authentically felt, even when they're not authentically grounded. So while God doesn't hate anybody, in God's goodness God deeply aches for you and recognizes how painful it would feel to think God did hate you. God is not insecure, nor is God so small as to "need" us think rightly of God in order for God to feel good about God's own self. (We humans on the other hand seem to do that quite a bit.) God is Love. The opposite of love is not hate, it is indifference and the only things God hates are those things that torment us, God's own beloved. Even when we do wrong, God knows (as we do deep down) that we are acting out of pain.
God loves you. God can hear and accept anything you bring, including anger at God or the fear that God might hate you. God understands that our experiences, struggles, and wounds can lead us to such pained thoughts and weeps for us. God loves you, not for what you do, but because you are Good. Not good enough. Good. And God's love, while it calls us against what is wrong, does so in the same way a parent may be angry with a child for crossing the street without looking. The surface is anger but that anger is rooted in a deep and abiding love for you, a person God wants to be safe from all the "traffic" of life.
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