I have a fear of failure and a fear of success. I have had lots of big ideas in the past that I never complete. I just talked about them and when I didn't accomplish the work, people saw me as a fibber or a loser.

I heard about the National Novel Month Challenge a couple of years ago and kept saying I would do it but as my usual I never finished anything. This November I desperately need to complete something; do something; finish something. It doesn't need to be a great novel or even an interesting novel. it just needs to be coherent. It will be something that I actually create and complete. Once I have reached 50000 words I can submit it and the site will just count the words and nothing else.

This November I will complete my 50000 word novel.