I am almost 30, and I just realized I have dissociated as a coping mechanism to deal with stress and depression since I was a child. It’s different than fantasy – although I have also lived largely in fantasy my whole life too – it’s like I feel like nothing is real, I am not real, the world around me is not real. Everything is a dream. I am numb.

Further, it’s almost like I can’t feel my body. Well, I can, but it’s like I am two degrees removed. I don’t feel pleasure, I don’t feel pain. Physically, and emotionally, I am empty.

I guess it’s kinda like being in that state that is somewhere between waking and sleep.

Can anyone relate???