not being able to describe why I hate myself
I have multiple addictions
I can be arrogant
I can easily dismiss other people
I refuse to ask for help
I don't want to live
I don't want to die
I am unable to process the information around me
I can't count to ten at the moment
I want to sleep but it is generally physically painful, likely because it's my fault

things I like..
My sense of humor
My ability to research
and problem solve
I try to remain neutral
I drive responsibly
and I'm tired and should probably go to sleep