You are stilll making it. You HAVE to get to the place that will help you. Is there anything that calms your anxiety you could do in the meantime? Try to lower your stress level. Can you just pick up and go to the place? They will help to get better and will be there with u. There are people that understand it better there probably. If you need to, is there someone you can ask to help u get there? When are you going? Think of the place as medicine. So glad you checked in on here.