This question is so hard to deal with. Well, not really a question, is it. This issue, anyway. It makes me fall asleep or spend hours staring at the computer screen or avoiding everything by playing stupid computer games. I can't get my homework done either, and I have lots of stuff due tomorrow. The same theme keeps coming up though. I keep discovering that my perception is off, and also that my judgement of my perception is unreliable too. I want to be real so bad, but I am so afraid of what real is and that maybe it's not something I will like. Authenticity is a good word.

How far do you drive for therapy? I usually do online work, but when I go it's a long way too.