Our brain's aren't broken, we are just wired differently, which causes us to short-circuit at times well,thats the version I prefer anyway. 'ill' and 'broken' are too heavy for my fragile self-esteem. Oh and yes, 'monster' is a good way of seperating us from the bipolar. I like being able to visualize kicking my bipolar monster's a.s.s! You're understandably overwhelmed, please remember to take it 1 step, 1 breath, 1 moment at a time.Please keep posting, an outlet is a good thing to have during such times