I get the feeling my family(people on both sides) don't like the idea of me being mentally ill because, of course it might smudge their reputation I guess that seems more on my moms side with my dads side they just have a philosophy of somehow not giving a crap and it seems to be seen as weak if you do happen to give a crap about things let alone your feelings.

But yeah I know I never wanted to even consider meds before I tried alcohol and marijuana a few times and even then I only did that very rarely if I was hanging out with people who were indulging but eventually I picked up on the feeling better thing....so since I've already self medicated with those things I don't see how taking prescription meds is any worse. But before that I was trying to just you know try harder at life and succeed or whatever...and it got me worse symptoms. I suppose the point is that sort of mindset can affect females and males both and it seems to beover looked quite a bit and gets assumed to be a male issue specifically. I guess its just weird being an atypical female as in most things that supposedly mostly apply to females don't usually apply to me......I am sure I am not the only one so I suppose I wonder where you turn for help when people assume your going to think and be a certain way due to physical gender.