Oh I agree with you Rapunzel about the disassociation..on one of the other pages it had this line this one about worry and change
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The ‘trapped syndrome’ is being trapped in ones own thoughts, creating such that one simply refuses to allow any other positive thought to flow. Self-responsibility. Being responsible for the thoughts created.It is being responsible for self, thoughts, actions, and in-actions... All of it stems from choices, and until one is ready to accept that it originates from self, the perception of life in the Whole struggles with change."
Any change causes great turmoil in my head but this makes sense to me. We choose to hang on to the damage from the childhood trauma.

another line from one of the pages said "It can affect relationships with a partner, family, friend or potential friends. The empath can get overloaded with other people’s emotions and even become seriously drained of his or her own personal energy. Learning to become aware of his or her “own” feelings as just that, belonging to and originating from one's self only will help tremendously. Otherwise, an empath can unknowingly take on board another's feelings/emotions.

This is most noticeable in situations where an empath can take on the “anger” or “stress” of others. Suddenly, without reason, he or she may become angry, have outbursts, or find him or herself retaliating. Essentially, the empath is sending the anger or stress back to its owner, although he or she will assume the anger or stress is his/her own. If an empath finds him or herself in this situation, he or she can expect to have taken on someone else's feeling. "...

However, they can be the exact opposite: reclusive and apparently unresponsive at the best of times. They may even appear ignorant. Some are very good at “blocking out” others and that’s not always a bad thing, at least for the learning empath struggling with a barrage of emotions from others, as well as their own feelings."

Only we took blocking a step further...our coping strategy. I was neither abused nor neglected. But I did grow up in a household where little affection was shown, is the only thing we can figure triggered this response.... Im not saying all borderlines are empaths but some may be... I rather think of having a talent gone wrong and undernourished than having a disorder. At least even though some of it may sound a bit kooky, it is a positive twist to our sensativity maybe we can turn our curse into a positive thing for a change. I have read that many work their way out thru years of talk therapy..I dont have years. I am 33...1/3 of my life is already over. I dont want to live the last 2/3 in torment. Change comes from within...and many of us fear change..we choose tohang onto that pain why not choose to let it go?