I am sorry you are feeling so bad. From what you wrote it sounds to me like your friend was going through a lot with the loss of her husband, I bet she has no idea about how you feel and I am sure she didn't want you to be hurt, who knows what your aunt was telling her. We all get busy in our lives so don't feel guilty about not being able to spend more time with them. Maybe after things calm down a bit you could go visit and let her know how you are feeling without your aunt being around. You are not a reject! What would poor Lucky do without you? You are needed!