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Old Nov 01, 2012, 12:11 AM
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Today has been pretty good overall. When I woke up, I was depressed, I could tell. I was being really slow, sluggish, and I felt tired overall. I didn't really want to talk to anyone at all. But then after school got started, I started to get really aggravated, and I mean aggravated. We were playing this one review game, and both me and my other teammate had the answer. So, the teacher asked who was going to give it to her, we both said "Me." At the same time. Well, she chose him. He got it wrong, and I would have gotten it right. This completely pissed me off, I almost started to cry. I hope they couldn't tell. Then, I got to my next class. I noticed I started to get more cheery and excited. Before I knew it, I was hypomanic and happy. This awesome feeling was good for gym, it allowed me to participate really well and enjoy myself. After I became hypomanic, I was SUPER talkative and goofy. It felt pretty good though. Next, I went to my history class. I was still really jittery and stuff, so I was abnormally talking. Then of course, I had to go to the nurse and get a physical, causing me to be really aggravated again since I was going to miss stuff. Once I got back, I was just happy again. Next, I went to my science, Halloween party. This was fun. At this point, I was extremely hypomanic. I could NOT sit still, I was giggly, I was shaking, I kept talking, I kept smacking people to bug them. I was to the point that when I would try to eat, since it would stick to my mouth, I felt as if it was taking to long and I would become impatient, resulting in not being able to eat anything. I could only drink stuff, which I drank like 4 little cups of pop. I felt great, but also a little bothered by it. After this, I remained the exact same way, but went to band. Then, I got to mess with a lot more people. I was punching, smacking, all sorts of stuff. I kept grabbing onto people, hugging them, and never let go. I would jump on them too. I started screaming out stupid stuff like "Twix!!". Then I felt exhausted and tired. But, as soon as I got to lunch, my energy shot way up. The ENTIRE time I was shouting random things to everyone in site, I was hitting people still, and I was trying to hand out McDonalds salt and pepper packets, which I had collected from a previous hypomanic episode. I was ridiculous. Then, I went to reading, becoming aggravated again, the teacher had marked a question wrong that I got right and she wouldn't look up for me to tell her. After she addressed the problem, I started to be less irritated. Next, I went to English. The most eventful class of the day. I went in, took a quiz which I think I might have failed. I compared my answers with someone next to me before handing it in (but we didn't cheat) and we had the EXACT same answers. That person is actually someone with bipolar disorder. However, afterwards, I was SUPER talkative, loud, running around the room. I kept carry my friends around the room on my back, I kept taking this one kids shoe off, my friend tied the other one to the desk. I also kept "transforming into weapon form" like an idiot, resulting in me slamming into a desk, which just made me laugh even more. After this, I brought up a quiz we were supposed to take. Only like 5 people participated in it. Me, the girl that I said was bipolar earlier, and a few others. I won a lot, getting prizes. then I went home, happy as hell. I got home, blared music, and then did some studying and homework. After this, I became slightly depressed and irritated. I was really tired, didn't want to talk, my body started aching, then I began to video chat with my one friend. This resulted in me becoming hypomanic again. I felt awesome, talked a bunch, and started to have racing thoughts like I was all day. Then, at 10:00 P.M., when we got off I got a shower. Then I started to play minecraft, leading us to now. Now I am shaking as a result of being nervous about sending my mom the letter in a little bit. Could you please comment telling me what you think of this? Also, if this sounded like a full Manic episode, not hypomania, please tell me. I cannot tell at this point which one it is.
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