Why is he putting all these obstacles that make my life harder? I'm trying to achieve what I want to achieve, but something has to block me, like some person relies on me so much it's mentally stressing and it gets me anxious because they are mentally unstable as well, it doesn't make any sense. I don't even have the proof that spirits are real, therefore that pokes a hole in my faith. I feel like God is disappearing from my faith, I love Him still but it's just everyday it's a bad day.