thanks for the tips, last night was an urge i had a really hard time fighting, thats why i was looking for any kind of forums, and this one seemed more for support then the other ones did, and thats what i am looking for someone to get through the tough times, i don't like doing it, but i feel its the only way out, but then i realize i am stronger then it, and i can beat it, and the funny thing is llast night my cat started loving on me so he made me feel needed at least by him if nobody else
nikki