Bethsway, i just wanted to say i am not on meds. i want to be able to get through this on my own. i was medication a few years and it hospitalised me and so i would rather stay away from it. plus i want to see how far i can go without it. just the way i am i suppose hehe.

thank you all for your kind comments, and Bethsway, i appreciate what you said. it made me see sense a little more.