Scorpio,
I have to make this brief. When you first started here, your issues and problems struck a gigantic chord with me and if I talk too much or get too involved I unintentionally set myself up for issues. I associate more with your problems more than I can possibly say. I was the first to respond to your first thread here but deleted it. You're not crazy.....You have BPD - you have issues, and many, many of your issues are mine....