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I"ve found out I pretty much don't have asperger's.
I'm worried about disassociative because I find myself daydreaming too often. Beyond that I look past every object and associate some other thought with it. It's like I'm analyzing literally everything I see or hear, but I'm not always analyzing it, sometimes I'm just associating something with it and running away with a train of thought.
I don't really feel like my vision is appropriate or clear. A lot of times I"m imagining something while trying to do something else. I feel like my vision is a little hazy. Physically. I really see thing's better when I try hard to be "in the room" or away from extra thoughts. I also feel a strong pressure in my forehead when I'm concentrating on "being in the room" (which is how I describe the non-disassociated state where all external senses are strong and I can take those in fully without being bothered by thoughts).
I'm trying to start taking in my stimuli around me. If I don't, I imagine something or I day dream or I hear other thoughts creep up and I follow them and think about them for a really long time. Most of the time I feel like this. I almost always feel like I am thinking about something or contemplating something.
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I'm worried about disassociative
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this word is different than the word "dissociative" here where I live and work in NY USA.
here where I am
Disassociative means you have willfully given up being a part of something
example I quite my Monday night bowling league so now I do nor associate with that game.
and
Dissociative is someone who because of a trauma or stress in their life, has dissociation symptoms ie feeling numb, feeling like they cant feel their body, spacey, feeling like the world is not real, feeling like they are not real...
Example
I feel numb this morning, my head feels like I have a hangover but I know its not because of drugs and alcohol, its because of lack of sleep due to stress in my life right now.. the stress of finding a new place to live that takes cats and dogs, and all that came with Hurricane Sandy. it just feels so unreal to me as I see the devastation around me, the city doesnt feel real to me right now.
Im not going to diagnose you but tell you what jumps out at me in your post...
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I look past every object and associate some other thought with it. It's like I'm analyzing literally everything I see or hear, but I'm not always analyzing it, sometimes I'm just associating something with it and running away with a train of thought.
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here where I live and work this would not be considered a "dissociative " symptom dissociative disorders are about not connecting, not thinking, shutting down of thoughts and reactions.
here it would be called many things like
normal.. because normal people do think like this, the normal human brain takes in information from a persons senses for example what they see, then interprets that information (your word "analyzing it" then what ever the brain thinks about what the person sees, it sends electrical impulses to the rest of the body that will allow them to make their choises on what to do about what they are seeing.
a person sees a broken window. the brain causes the person to analyze that and makes a thought about whether that broken window is a threat or not, something interesting or any number of billions of billions of thoughts about that window, then the person takes action based on what they know about that window...pass it by, get a closer look, walk around it, put out a sign... what ever action the person may do at that point.
this kind of thought process can also be any number of mental disorders that do share this symptom like
adhd - Attention Deficit Hyperactive Disorder
add - attention deficit disorder
ocd - obsessive compulsive disorder
Bipolar
ptsd
My suggestion hold off from calling yourself and your problem dissociative until after you talk with your treatment providers. they will be able to tell you what your diagnosis is, and why you are diagnosed the way you are. they will be able to differentiate between what is normal, whether you have any of the disorders where this kind of thinking is a symptom vs normal brain activity.
here where I live and work there are many medical and mental problems where a person has vision problems, most people I have encountered did not fit the dissociative type of vision problems because their vision problems were for other reasons than stress/ triggers and trauma. which is the standard for diagnosing a vision problem as a dissociative problem here where I live and work.
sometimes it means the person needs glasses when under some situations and sometimes its a medication problem or part of any number of medical or mental health problems.. my suggestion contact your treatment providers, they can also refer you to an eye doctor who can make a determination as to if there is something medically wrong with your eyes, then after that is done your treatment providers will know whether your eye problems are medical or a symptom of a mental disorder.
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I'm trying to start taking in my stimuli around me. If I don't, I imagine something or I day dream or I hear other thoughts creep up and I follow them and think about them for a really long time. Most of the time I feel like this. I almost always feel like I am thinking about something or contemplating something.
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Again here where I live and work this kind of thing would not be called dissociation. here in NY USA this kind of thing is called many things depending upon accompanying symptoms..
Normal brain activity
OCD
ADHD
ADD
mania / bipolar
here where I live and work dissociation is about being shut down, not having any thoughts, not being a participant in things
example seeing something and not thinking any thoughts about it, its just there having no connection to me, I dont take any notice of it at all. not following any train of thought, object or conversation. just numb and not participating at all.
again I cant diagnose you, I am just stating what these things would be called here in NY USA.
my suggestion if having this thought process is bothersome to you contact your treatment providers they can help you so that you dont have such manic / obsessing thoughts.