I'm glad to hear you say that you know how good you have it. Shifting my focus to the abundance of blessings in my life instead of the lack always makes me feel good, and when I feel good everyone around me feels better as well. I know what it's like to be the helpee too. I love when I can find a way to give back something worthy to those that help me. I know that when I am doing well the people in my life feel much more appreciated and inspired to continue with the love and support instead of maybe obligation or resentment. It sounds like you are driving your kids to school and that is a great thing you are doing for them and something I think you can feel very good about.

I hope the Ativan makes for a nice soft landing. I remember that it did that for me. I only took it at night though so don't know how well you might drive on it.

I took Ambien for two years and I didn't want to stop because I felt like I was getting a good sleep but actually it knocked my body out before my brain knew I was asleep and all night long I was eating, rearranging furniture, opening mail, painting my nails and all sorts of things. I'd wake up and I thought elves had been there, all kinds of things were in a turmoil and I had no memory of doing anything. I ate two hard boiled eggs with the shell on and woke up to what I thought was sand caked into my gums. I had to stock foods that wouldn't lacerate my gums if stored there for hours in my sleep. The new softer foods were yogurt and olives but it's no fun waking up to wet puddles on my sheets either. Instead of just my nails I would paint my whole fingers, monkeys could have done a better job. You may have heard the stories of people actually driving in their Ambien induced sleep, luckily I never did that. I know a girl who takes it and then crafts all night long, she wakes up to sloppy projects, spilled glue and paints etc.

I am impressed with your positive attitude, it makes me feel positive just reading your posts. Please treat yourself kindly and take care.