I am so sorry you are going through all of this. It stinks.

Really glad you are reaching out. You have come to the right place if you want someone on your side. There are a lot of lovely people here that offer support, advice, input, care. Many that can relate. You are not alone.

IMHO, it looks as if you have your work cut out for you with this person; however, the heart wants what the heart wants. But at what expense? Your health, welfare and general well-being?

Do you have a T that you can speak with? It's important I think to speak with someone to share your feelings and also to find out the root cause of why you continue to go back (or wait) for someone that makes you work so hard for a relationship, who continues to reject you and toys with your feelings.

You do not deserve that *but you have to really feel that way in order to make a change or to see things from a different perspective*

Based on what you have shared, what would you tell your best friend if that person were in the same situation?

I hope you will be good and kind to yourself. And I hope that you will continue posting and let us know how you are doing.

Rose