He has been looking at online support groups for spouses of bipolar people. He has started doubting my diagnosis of bipolar 1 because I have never gone into a rage where I threw and broke stuff, physically attacked him, abused him or the kids physically and haven't done stuff like just take off and leave for days. Before I was diagnosed I would suddenly fly off the handle and scream at the girls until they were crying, terrified and asking me to stop. I consider that to be verbal abuse. I was constantly accusing my husband of cheating or getting pissed off and flying off the handle over something small. He would leave a glass on the desk and I woiuld think about divorcing him because he was cheating SOB who didn't care about me.

He contends because I haven't flown into a major rage, broken stuff, physcially attacked him, etc. I'm not bipolar 1. He admits that there are many symptoms that fit--such as hallucinations, becoming delusional, staying up for three or four days at time with only a few hours of sleep, crashing from that and going into deep depressions where I become suicidal, what is very clearly rapid cycling and mixed states. I feel medication is what has given me what control I have and has prevented the kind of rages he's talking about.

How many of you who are bipolar 1 have gone into the kind of rages he's talking about? Are there any of you who haven't?