((Scorpio Eyes))

I can relate a lot to several of the core issues plaguing you in life. It is so horrible to go through these quick phases of mood with my bf ~ please don't leave me; leave me alone; don't go! And on and on. Drives me bananas! I go deep into paranoia a few times a month that I'm truly not "in love" which scares the hell out of me. I can't bear the thought of being without him. He's so sweet! He truly does care about me ~ why must I be such a cruel POS???

I'm pretty much down to no friends, and I've had to pull away from my family (for my own sanity). I wish that I could be "normal" ~ but that's a huge fantasy that I can't ever see coming true for me. I always keep up barriers to very intimate details of my childhood and teenage years, due to shame. Supposedly unwarrented shame, but it's overwhelming and miserable nonetheless. I can't stand it!

I'll try not to bore you with my saga. Just wanted you to know that I really do understand how you're feeling. It's hard ~ no doubt about it! Gentle hugs to you!