Even though so much has been going on--- I have not visited my old buds or pals.

At the same time I am glad and whohoo for myself for this
On another side of me, with how I have been it is like why not due i feel like I am on drugs with how my emotions have been

but as always-- I Do Remind My Self-- that even if I feel as if I am on drugs with the emotional roller coaster, that the drugs and alcohol will make it worse. it will nto solve anything, and lets hope that the duration is not as long if i were using.

Still visit and sit with my friendly cigs though, but one day -- they will be an ex-bud like the rest.