I saw Pdoc and forgot my formulary. I hardly ever take a drug. I once in a while take a pill for a headache or a cold but not very often. I tried an over the counter sleep aid once during the past nine months of trouble sleeping. I had a cold at the time and hoped I could sleep better if I did. I woke up quite a bit. Since I forgot my formulary, Pdoc gave me prescription for Trazodone to see if it helps me sleep. It just makes me dizzy when I get up in the middle of the night to go to the bathroom. I tried 25 mg (half a pill) two different nights. The first night I obsessed about the idea of a drug messing with my mind. My mind works funny. So, I don't like to mess with it. That night I woke up at one and around four. The next night I woke up at almost two and three thirty. I woke up some more later last night. I am trying to figure out if I try a whole pill since the pharmacist said that I could take up to a pill and a half or will I just get dizzy while trying to go to the bathroom in the middle of the night. She had wanted me on Paxil CR. I cried today. You know that I just love to cry.
What's it like to take an anti-depressant? I once felt guilt-free and was very happy for no apparent reason. I thought I was losing my conscience or becoming a psychopath. Sometimes, I joked that I was high or experiencing a manic stage. But, could it be that it was normalcy? Do normal moods get that high? Could that be what it is like to take anti-depressants? Can they really help with sleep, crying, the feeling of being overwhelmed, the staring at the walls, the feeling of helplessness, negative thinking etc? T says that they can make the negative thinking easier to let go of. Does it?