I am just about to explode, break down or worse, i am so tired of fighting everything, i don't know what to do, i try my best to help people, be good, kind and be positive, but i can't do it anymore. the reason being i am being kicked from every angle. the primary care trust will not fund the only treatment available for my condition, ths architect will not re do the plans to my spec for my house to be adapted at my expense with a grant for part of it, the grant people will not tell me the amount they will put towards it so i have no idea of my budget, the builder will not give me a quote without the final plans, the bus company i have used for years has now decided my mobility scooter is too big for the bus even though they let heavier wheelchairs and larger kiddy buggies on and the taxi card system set up to help disabled people access cabs left me stranded two and a half hours in the cold dark rain having rerouted my cab to someone else, this means i now am limited to the range of my scooter cos i can't rely on any public transport anymore. I am not eligible for an electric wheelchair because i can side transfer myself (at a push! I can't however mobilise a manual chair outside, but that doesn't seem to matter!) my GP was supposed to fax a prescripton to my pharmacist today and three hours later it still had not arrived, the girl who helps me got dressed is on holiday, i can't get an agency to cover her because the front door lokc is broken due to me having no choice but to ramraid it open to get in until the adaptions are done, which means i had to scooter 20 minutes in a temperature of about 10 degrees max in my PJs and wet pad to pick it up and take it to the pharmacy! i live alone with no family or close friends to support me
and all this is happening now!
how the hxxl am i supposed to keep myself together ?
sorry but i really needed to vent this x