I have noticed you have a couple of threads where when things are going poorly you wonder if you should be in this relationship , like you do not deserve it. You may want to look at that pattern of thinking. Can you blame the dog or your daughter for being uncomfortable about being in the house after you went into such a rage. I am wondering if you could do some free therapy ..I know you have posted money is tight this would be to work on your anger. You seem to have a lot of anger in you. I have seen that in some threads. I feel for you because I can tell you feel really bad So know I am trying to help. Also you may want to work on this because if your boyfriend were to witness it you could very well scare him off and you would both miss out. I know if I were dating someone and saw something like that that would be it for me and I bet you would do the same...Anger can be managed. You can work on this. It will work out. The dog as long as there is stress like this in the house will be harder to housetrain. I am sorry you feel so bad and hope you seek some help in person.