move to the UK we could both wear diapers together! mine are a medical necessity but i do know what you mean. i have resigned myself to the fact my destiny is to be alone. it is scary to even contemplate how a person i really fancy will react if they find out i wear diapers and even more so as i not only wear them but use them for their full purpose as i am fully double incontinent! unlike you my diapers do not invoke any sexual feelings, but saying that nothing has for years!
try googling diaper fettish, you will be suprised how many things come up.