Aw man, Wi_fighter I just saw that you called, too I agree with something that Pasdedeux said about your pattern of automatically questioning your relationship when you're stressed. The rest of it, I think you know already, but I'm not really convinced that he's the kind of guy that gets scared off easily. So don't be too hard on yourself for that -- he needs to know the real you, for better or for worse (and most of it is for better, so you're in the clear).

I do want to comment on the dog. We were in this dog thing together, and when you said that the dog is freaking you out but "too many ppl would be disappointed" if you gave her back to the shelter... honestly? If she stresses you out this badly, then I would NOT be disappointed if you gave her back. I want what's best for you, but also, as an animal lover, it's not good for her if your relationship with her is strained. In fact, I think it's likely to be perpetuating itself. There needs to be the right chemistry and circumstances, and if it's not the right time or fit, then you both might be better off trying something else.

I care about you very much and I'm sad that you're worrying so much. Tell me what I can do to help, ok?